Scars by papa roach

Chorus:
I tear my heart open,
I sow myself shut.
My weakness is;
that I care too much.
My scars remind me,
that the past is real.
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.

verse:
Drunk and I'm feeling down,
and I just wanna be alone.
I'm pissed cause you came around;
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you channel all your pain ;
and I can't help to fix myself,
Your making me insane,
and all I can say is..

chorus:
I tear my heart open,
I sow myself shut.
My weakness is;
that I care too much.
My scars remind me,
that the past is real.
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.

verse:
I tried to help you once,
A kiss will only vise.
I saw you going down,
but you never realized.
That your drowning in the water;
so I offered you my hand,
Compassions in my nature,
Tonight is our last dance.

chorus:
I tear my heart open,
I sow myself shut.
My weakness is;
that I care too much.
My scars remind me,
that the past is real.
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.

bridge:
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down,
And I just wanna be alone,
You shouldn't ever came around,
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water,
And I tried to grab your hand,
And I left my heart open,
But you didn't understand;
But you didn't understand.

You fix yourself.

I can't help you fix yourself;
But at least I can say I tried,
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.
I can't help you fix yourself,
But at least I can say I tried,
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.

chorus(x2):
I tear my heart open,
I sow myself shut.
My weakness is;
that I care too much.
My scars remind me,
that the past is real.
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.

random song. emo sia. heh.

HEY HEY! it's like SUPER qiao okay! it's like SO COOL! cos i saw him ystd at debbie's tuition centre dere. den today wen i'm going home i saw him AGAIN! eekss! AND AND AND! it's like almost the SAME area la. so cool! maybe his friend stays dere. (i wonder?) hahaha.

anyway, talk about other things ba. well, went to parkway today to but mummie's mother's day prezzie. yeah, speat like alost 40 bucks on it. BUT it's well spent okay! hahahs! NOT wasting any money, but the money from my back acct. cos the money's frm DERE! argh, so now got lesser money. hurhur. must get it back frm my bro and sis! muahahahah! i'm evil alrite. whee.

OH YAR! today's jeremy and arthur's birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU TWO! hahahahah!

to jem: YOU become old liao! muahahahaha. bian cheng lao lao! budden young at heart can le la. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

to arthur: hello hi-5 lover! muahahah! you go watch hi-5 wif des la.den can find jub jub and chatterbox! wahahahahas!

anyway. enjoy while YOU people can. cos exams are here!

STUDY
STUDY
STUDY

MUG
MUG
MUG

MENTAL BLOCK
STRESS
DIE

[mati la dat one.]
hahah.so yeah.

ok. a TOTAL DISATER! i failed pft?! can YOU believe it?! i NEVER failed before! it's like the FIRST time and i hope it's THE LAST time. ): hais, well, i AM still sick, (maybe that's why it was a prob for me to run) anyway, i couldn't breathe wen i was running half way! den stupid mrs. c was riding the bicycle and saying , " i dun wanna catch you again arh! run faster! " den i was lyk WTH?! den i ran, den stop. i'm lyk REALLY DEAD tired and she ask me run summore. so shiaty can! argh! den my score was really BAD! ): gotta retake again i think! so ass la. i work SOO HARD for the 5 items den 2.4km i did shiat! HAIS, sian la! ok. i just hope i dun have to re-take man! phew!

HEY HEY. had english exam today! ): i think i did a really BIG mistake ok! for the letter writing! i forgot to write MY ADDRESS! DIE! will get penalise one not?! AHHH! scared leh, den if i fail, DIE LA! yikes! can't fail english! gotta pass! den e compre i have 1 mistake liao! EEKSS! i'm lyk worrying my life away lor! HOPE I PASS! (ok. enough of english exam, wad past has past. stop worrying bout the past and look at the future.wadeva.)
anyway, the weird thing was dat, i forgot to switch my phone to silent mode la. den lyk, my phone was in my bag, outside of the classroom wif me inside e class, and it rang cos there was a msg and NO teacher realise! NOT one. HENG! i thought my phone would get confiscated sia. phew! that was a rather lucky event i shld say. XD well, nth much to blog bout today. got my specs last week, my sister went to get hers. wonder how she'll look like? (hmm..)
yeah anyway, black box and speech day was GREAT! (: really had loads of fun! (besides me rushing for tuition after e whole thing). yupp . well, went to sch at 1115 plus, den saw surin, was suppose to meet crystal but she haven come,den waited for jade was was surin said, den walked out and saw crystal.den all 4 of us went to 7 11, den saw nicole and edel at the bus stop walking to the overhead bridge. yar. crystal wanted to catch nicole's attention. did dat but nicole dao-ed her. HAH. (dat's mean. XD) den went out, chased after dem den left together for sch la. went to the foyer, saw almost every choir member dere. heh. had warm-ups in the hall cos need sound check. den after dat went back to music room for more proper prac. black box pple had to go for sound check again. did dat, den went back for prac again. performed. did quite a great prob. sang the sch song den perform. lalala~ exit. went back stage. saw the 19 girls sing wif teresa "xiang nian ni de ge", den ended. went back to music room to faster change and get ready for black box. nicole helped wif the make-up. went up to comp lab 4 to prepare. matilda did more make up. den had light check. and I had to take off my glasses cos it was too bright under the light. heh. so did just that, had sound check again den went back. slacked for lyk 1h wif pracs(of course). hah. den perform! WE DID REALLY WELL! (i'm so proud of myself! XD) everyone enjoyed our performance! (: so happy! whee~ so after dat, rushed for tuition. chiongster man. hehehe.

ok. back to sch, after my mc, sian la! got so many rubbish to clear! argh! anyway, today was kinda boring though. yeah, besides maths lesson which was totally hilarious! (to most pple), yeah. (i'm using the starting letters of e name) well, it stated off wif mr k asking A, S, D and E to stay back to see him. den A said, " cannot! i got tuition!" den mr k said, " wad time is ur tuition?" she said, " 5 o clock." "5 o clock den start, can come see me wad?" "i live at pasir ris leh! cannot see you la!" points at A, "i dont care! i want you to see me today!" den he said, " thanks you girls!" in an angry tone. and J said, " thank you mr k and god BLAST you always!" was rather rude i should say.(no offense) den the WHOLE class started laughing la. hhas! it was really really funny ok! yeah, den had study skills, the instructor said i was an read/write person when it comes to studying, and a kinesthetic person wen it comes to doing thing.s. hahs. yeah, think it's true i guss. haha! oh yar, tmr is speech day! sian! oso gonna be the black box opening! AHH! so exciting! (: hope we sing well!

ok. back blogging. all alone at home now. sian. got nth to do. den later got tuition, so cannot go for r-age at work.hais.and i'm grounded till sunday.so no going out oso.dat's why i'm stuck home.yeah.
ok. bout sports day! (: the telematch soccer did well! =D we clinched a GOLD! whee~~ and e cheerleading group clinched 4th position! even though we didnt get top 3 but, we did our best! (: dat's the good thing la. at least it all didnt go in vain. all the practices, the mistakes and everything. we managed to pull it off real well! =D HAPPY FOR THE CHERRLEADING TEAM! GO 205! hahas! oh yes, another thing. ms. w is happy now cos her class beat our class in sports day! well, if she tinks her class is so good, we can be BETTER! WAY BETTER. hurhur.
ok. enough bout dat, on to good friday, which was ystd. yepp. didnt go for service. yeah. mum brought us out, go orchard, had breakfast dere and walk around.yar. den came home after dat cos it started raining. yupp. den went to starville to check the leakages. WOW! the whole house is FULL OF ERRORS OK! so many leaks, so many cracks and unfilled areas. my gosh. it was horrible ok! tsk. anyway, den came home after dat, yar. ate macs and den came home to study. yupyup. finished all my hw! whees~~ hahas! den weekends dun need do hw liaos! wahahs! anyway,yupp.oh yes, den at night, walked/jogged out to upper east coast road for dinner.(form of exercise la) yes, went to gelare for dinner! yum. love the ice-creams dere ok. thw pastas were nice too! hahs. yar. den after dat, walked all the way home. and den, watched "honey" on my laptop. yar. so fun.hahs. yupp. den now, back here rotting! SIAN!

seven random facts about me
1)i love cheerleading! (:
2)i haven't been absent frm sch for like 2-3 years? (i think)
3)i USED to like pink! (BLAH!)
4)i LOVE chocolates!
5)i love adriano and yiyuan plus zhiyang! (dun ask me why)
6)i i'm very bored now!
7)i can dance! hahas!

seven celebrity crushes
1)yiyuan?
2)zhiyang!
3)adiano!
dat's all i guess! HAHA!

seven qualities i want in a potential boyfriend/girlfriend
1)LOVELY
2)MUST LOVE ME (obviously)
3)MUST BE SHUAI (i guess)
4)BE MR. SUPER NICE GUY
5)PAMPER ME!
6)KNOW ME REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WELL. (so if i ever throw a temtrum, he'll know what
to do)
7)LOVE ME! (i repeated that, i know)

seven things that scare me
1)insects.
2)scary looking pple! (like those in haunted house)
3)staying in the dark. (don't ever put me in a dark room alone! i'll cry for nuts!
4)when things go wrong
5)when i dunno how to do my exam questions.
6)when the teacher scold me for no reason.
7)when i'm doing my work and the whole computer shuts off.

seven random songs at the moment
1)crash
2)ai wu li
3)believe me
4)look to you
5)catch your wave
6)ai mei
7)tian hui

seven things i like the most
1)drama!
2)205 cheerleaders! (:
3)CHOIR!
4)my room!
5)music!
6)my darling friends
7)jesus christ!

seven things i plan to do before i die
1)go tour the whole world
2)find someone i really love. (dat's random)
3)get the phone i want!
4)grow way taller!
5)be the good-iest person on earth
6)act to tv?
7)have my own record album.

seven things i say the most
1)WT*?!2
)w**h l**
3)s***
4)shoots
5)so fetch!
6)OOOOIIII!
7)go away.

seven people i want to do this too[do it k?]
1)deserie huang
2)crystal tay
3)amanda lee
4)chimene lim
5)vanessa soh
6)nicole tan
7)jem lim(just do it ok?)

Your #1 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: ESTJ

The Guardian You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done! You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

Your #3 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #4 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #5 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

does dat sound lyk me?

hey! (: well, had cheerleading today. hahahs! anyway, had it frm lyk wad, 8 to 1? or was it 12? i forgot. yeah. heh heh. and our costume was lyk wad? 30 bucks? yar. really look lyk as if we acy kawaii liddat. but it looked rather goth too. hahs! XD hmmm, den oso, went to parkway for lunch. didnt tell mum, got scolded cos she found out n now, my phone kanna confiscated for one WHOLE week. so DUN MSG ME HOR! REMEMBER! unless she wanna give it or wad la. yupp. so dat was practically wad happen. oh yes! ms tan came! (: wahh. miss her sia! how long since she was not our teacher liao arh? i wonder. she;s like e 1st teacher i EVER CRIED for ok?! yeah. well, oso dat finally i can blog. been rather busy in sch, tuition, cheerleading and oso, packing my house! yepp. and another punishment i had for not telling my mum bout me going parkway was dat i cant go to chuch service. have to follow her. but i hope at least cell ba! i'm scared alreadi! and she said ONE WHOLE MONTH FOLLOW HER! is lyk CANNOT LA! NONONO! yar. ok. better stop now. later she see. tata!